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To Fall Apart

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To fall apart and to reconstruct

A version of yourself you’re not used to seeing

Lonely days waiting for notice

Inspiration awaiting the tick of the clock to ignite some action

But your legs crumble at the thought of moving

The path is uncertain and you don’t know what you will see

When faced with the reflection of who you’re supposed to be

The sparkle that once was there

Still shines, but shines so deep

Buried in thoughts that no one can hear

Clouded by doubts, insecurity and fear

When you are stripped bare and taken apart

Piece by piece until you know who you are

What you are made of

And you are reminded it is still your choice

What stays in, what has served its purpose and how to evolve

To a new version of you, reconstructed, imperfect, raw but alive.

_Laiz Ferreira (‘To Fall Apart’, 22/10/2023)

To be Free

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Walking down the street without reason,
What a treat!
To sip a cup of coffee, to laugh with friends, to hold a hand.

Do you know where you are going? With what purpose? Is it essential?

Limit your life experience, confine your existence to a 5k radius.

Tough days are past, more yet to come
When time has no meaning and you find yourself alone.

Think of your mothers, your children, your health. Think of those who now may rest.

And when you feel lost and hopeless… take a breath. If you can, you are winning.

_Laiz Ferreira (‘To be free’ 25/01/2021)

‘Human Again’

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I wake up in the morning
And it feels the same
The sun shines
The birds sing
But I don’t go about my day

Instead I pause and reflect
Not by choice or will
But because humanity was bestowed a rare yet cruel gift

We all sit and wait
Many of us pray for better days
But within the fear of the unknown
We find something we thought was gone

Deep within our busy routines
Constant demands and lack of peace
We finally find time

Time to remember who we are
Time to care
Time to share

Time to figure out what really matters and time to give back

One day soon, hopefully very soon, this break will end
Not without sorrow and certainly with a fair amount of learnings

When this day comes we will be better, we will be stronger, we will be kinder…

We will be human; again.

Laiz_Ferreira. (31/03/20)

‘Brog’

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I choose life
When times are hard
I choose life
When the way is uncertain
I choose life
When doubts creep in
I choose life
When confronted with fear
I choose life

I choose life in the making
I choose you above anything
You helped me gain perspective
You helped me see it more clear
You helped me value what really matters
Even though you’re not yet here

I can’t wait to meet you soon
And hold you in my arms
With a smile that can’t be contained
You will bring light to both our hearts

We will begin a new family soon
But the love is already here
The love that both of us cherish
We will always protect it
And keep it within

Today I want to say thank you
For making me stronger than I ever thought I could be…
You’re a warrior with a brave heart
You’re my little ‘Brog’ that soon we will meet.

Laiz Ferreira – 06/06/20 ‘For Brog’

A Mother’s Prayers

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I made plans thinking of you

I looked into places and pictured you

I await the time I can hold you in my arms

And I pray to the skies that you will find the light

That will guide you back to me

Because a soul is never lost

And our hearts will again meet

Like the singing of birds, so perfect though never taught

I will love you with all the strength of my heart

I await the time I will see you smile

And step by step I will hope to guide you to a place where I’m no longer needed

So you can build a journey of your own

always knowing you have a place to call home.

L_Ferreira.

17/01/2018.

Harmony 

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Harmony is one of the key ingredients to lead a happy life.

If you lose harmony at home or in the work environment and you allow circumstances to swallow you bit by bit, soon you will cease to exist.

You let go of your aspirations and instead succumb, becoming a human sponge that is influenced by everything and all, sucking the good and the bad, ultimately internalising emotions without letting go.

It is time to reset. To inspire and to be inspired. To welcome change as a challenge that will lead you to greatness.

If you feel down, respect those emotions and allow yourself to live through it. If you feel happy, do the same.

One thing that is never going to change is that life is uncertain. The secret of harmony is accepting this truth.

You are more resilient than you can imagine. Don’t give bad circumstances the power it does not have.

We may not control the ocean but we are still the ones steering the boat in the right direction.

_Laiz Ferreira.

To Achieve or to Awake

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For a good couple of years in my life I was completely focused on what I had to achieve.

Many would consider this to be a good trait; to be able to focus on a goal and pursue it! For me it was a burden since once you feel you ‘have’ to achieve something in life, the fun aspect of it is nearly instantaneously taken away.

This was when I realised I was focusing on the wrong things and I was making priorities that were not true to my heart. This is possibly the moment one can say they feel lost. At least that was how I felt.

The confusion of realising you’re in the wrong path and to not quite understand what really fulfils you can be overwhelming at times. But I can confidently say that this was the best realisation I ever had.

It is like being uncomfortably numb for years and years and suddenly have a big bucket of ice cold water thrown over your head and after the shock you feel alive, you feel again!